i am finish with undergrad.....craziness!

So I haven't posted in a really long time but I thought that this feat deserved a mention.

I visited Chris this weekend and was supposed to catch a train at 12:26am this morning to come home and make it back in time for class at 9 this morning. (There was a panel of studio executives coming to the class and a midterm review which would make it really sad to miss.) Unfortunately, I thought that the train was at 12:35 and we missed it completely. Rather than waiting for the next train at 7:38 and miss my class. Chris drove me all the way back to Philly, stayed for about an hour and drove all the way back to CT for work today.

My boyfriend is crazy and amazing and deserves major props.

The End.

so, i haven't posted in forever but it is absolutely necessary for me to post how wonderful my valentine's day was thanks to my spectacular boyfriend.

Chris was being a little shady about valentine's day for the last couple weeks, telling me he wasn't sure about it and it might be egotistical and stuff. then, this week i kept harrassing him and telling him that i really missed him. so, he said he would come down on saturday after work to see me. then, on valentine's day, he calls me while i'm at work and asks me to come up to the lobby. he was standing in the lobby with a rose and the cd currently playing and i jumped him.

BEST SURPRISE EVER!!!!

the rest of the day was spent in a manner fit for the occasion. glorious!! i still get bouncy thinking about it. he had to leave at 6pm cuz he had work in the morning, but it was still wonderful. i'm pretty sure he's ruined me for future boyfriends. he's not allowed to leave.

later, i had a wonderful dinner with Elaine, Joy and Karishma at olive garden. Elaine and i looked at wedding catalogues and made fun of the dresses while waiting for a table. i'm not getting married at a time when a designer thinks that a valence is a good inspiration for a wedding dress. seriously, soooo many ugly dresses. Karishma, Elaine and i went to the chocolate cafe, which was delicious. then, Elaine came to work with me to watch vmars.

really, the most excellent valentine's day i have every had.

right now, i hate my life.

i will like it much better next weekend.

i just wish next weekend would come faster.

i'm really terrible at proofreading.

i just poured over an email about registering for a course that i was sending to my advisor/professor (who is anal when it comes to grammar) and my soon-to-be (hopefully) professor. i was careful to look over spelling and sentence structure and it looked good except for one sentence that i wanted to reword. so, i reword it and hit send and realize as it is sending that i made a glaringly obvious mistake in the sentence i had just reworded. i panicked and tried to stop it from being sent but failed. it's probably not that big of a deal but i feel stupid about it. i should know better.

i'm a nitwit.

i hate wednesdays

i lost my purse in the mall.....with my wallet and keys in it.

this is not a good feeling....

 so, i had 2 wonderful weeks with chris and now i'm home and alone again. i'm also back to being a workaholic......this sucks.

so Chris is coming down tomorrow for about a week and then i'm going up to ct and vt with him. this has made work officially unbearable, lol. i'm getting incredibly antsy just sitting around and annoyed at the fact that it's not wednesday. sigh.... well less than 24 hours to go. i just have to get through work here at razelle's and then work at the pool. i think i can stand it...

i keep learning about my friends getting pregnant and married. the first one was dori but that didn't seem too weird cuz she was always in a different place emotionally and mentally from the rest of us, always seemed to be a step further in life. then there was dez which i thought was really bizarre. but lately its been one after the other. it just seems like lots of ppl are getting married and having kids (or vice versa) that are my age or younger.

if they're not married, they're talking about getting married or moving in together and doing all sorts of grown-up things. am i the only one that gets freaked out by this kind of thing? it's just too totally weird for me, to be at a place where marriage seems reasonable. i still feel like a child watching everyone grow-up around me, and old at the same time. i mean i can hardly decide what i wanna do from one week to the next, let alone the rest of my life. marriage scares me. babies scare me more. yet, all these ppl, that are my age or younger, are approaching it calmly.

i just don't get it.

so my goal for the summer was to save enough money to maybe actually go somewhere for spring break this year (i'm thinking paris cuz sam will be doing study-abroad there). to do that i figured i needed to find a job where i could work everyday so i wouldn't spend the money....

that turned into me never having free-time again. i currently have 3, technically 4, jobs. i'm a lifeguard, a tristan video employee, a secretary/personal assistant, and a tutor. for the past week or so i've been going straight from one job to the other and since i got into a car accident, i'm riding septa, biking, or getting rides from my parents and my sister's boyfriend to do it. my social life consists of talking to chris most of the time and jess on occasion. i also occasionally hang out with my sister and her boyfriend.

sigh. well, if it doesn't kill me it will make me stronger, right? or at least slighlty richer. at least the jobs aren't difficult. the kids at the pool can frustrate the hell out of me but that's about it. i have the option of requesting more days off in august for the pool. maybe then i'll have a bit more to do in the social area.

so, i think i may easily reach my goal of never having another free day this summer. my mom has set me up to tutor the kid of a co-worker in writing. that will be a couple hours a week and the woman is paying me $20 an hour.....SCORE!!!

on top of that, i will be getting my lifeguard certification next week before leaving for ct to visit Chris (yipee!). my sister's pool is already asking when i can start. so, the lifeguarding job is lined up. i'm still working for Razelle and Tristan too.

now if i can just keep from spending the money that i make once i get it, i might have a chance of actually going somewhere for spring break this year....

i decided to go sunbathing today and didn't have sense enough to look for sunscreen beforehand. now, i am the color of a lobster.

i'm a lil worried i might look like this when i'm older........maybe being ghostly isn't such a bad thing

i am so unbelievably pissed right now.

the art teacher i had in high school, ms. starr, left the year that i graduated after being there for well over 20 years. she was an amazing art teacher and did so much for the program at the school. she taught all different forms of art, but never limited anyone to one form with any project. the student could choose to do anything within a general framework for each project. she made it possible for kids at my school to go on to art schools and successful careers. and every year, she had the seniors do a portrait in the classroom, meaning on the walls, the ceilings, the doors, anywhere they could find space. they could do anything they wanted with the space so long as they related it to themself. there are some amazing pieces of art all over the room as a result.

when she left, they hired this woman, ms. grunt. she made it so that every student was doing the same project at the same time. so, its like being back in grade school. all the projects look similar. there's hardly any variety. the kids are bored. its really sad. every year there is an art show. when ms. starr was here, there were hundreds of pieces in the show. an entire gym was completely filled with art. the pieces were unique. most of the community came to see the show, along with large amounts of alumni. when i went last year there were barely a hundred pieces there. there were only a handful of people there to see the pieces. there was a table with all of one project that looked similar, then another table with another project and so on. i wanted to cry.

now, my sister tells me that she's fucking painting over the senior projects. she wants to make everything nice and clean and makes me so fucking angry. students left their senior projects as a mark on the school. it's a representation of their high school experiences. and their works of art. she's fucking up the program. she's making people hate art. and she's erasing real art so that her room can be perfectly white. so, if she had any chance of alumni coming its disappearing. she's pissed me off and i'm pretty sure i won't be the first.

Guilt	What is yours?	Explain yourself
Culinary:	pepperidge farm goldfish	i could very easily eat an entire bag of goldfish within an hour and have to consciously force myself to put them away so i won't
Literary:	people magazine	if there's a copy lying around i pick it up and read it almost cover to cover
Audiovisual:	adult swim	i like it......its stupid and pointless and sometimes just plain disgusting but i love it
Musical:	avett brothers and lyle lovett	i profess a loathing for country music and generally hate it with a passion but i love these two
Celebrity:	john cusack	i dunno, i like him, i think he's cool, and i like almost all the movies i've seen him in, and i make an effort to watch movies if they have him in them

Now I tag:-

kikimodo limegreentea samedrug liberty176 and eveymilagros


to complete this same Quiz, Its HERE.

boo :(

Redneck?
( } do you have a couch in your front yard or porch?
{ } do you drive a four-wheeler?
{ } do you ride four-wheelers?
{x} do you like to get dirty?
{ } do you like country music?
{ } do you have a broken car in your back yard?
{x} do you own a cowboy hat?
{ } do you live on more then 2 acres?
{ } do you have more than 4 different animals at your home?
Total X's: 2

Goth?
{ } do you wear black eyeliner?
{ } is most of your clothing dark?
{ } do you think about death often?
{ } do you want to die?
{ } are you a social outcast?
{x} are you pale?
{x} do you like Hot Topic?
{x} do you enjoy Tim Burton movies?
{ } are you mean?
Total X's: 3

Punk?
{ } can you skateboard?
{ } do you wear vans?
{x} do you do stupid stuff with your friends?
{x} have you gotten in trouble with the cops?
{ } do you watch the x-games?
{x} do you have any piercings?
{ } do you like/wear mohawks?
{ } do you wear band t-shirts?
{ } have you called someone a poser?
Total X's: 3

Prep?
{x} do you say the word "like" a lot?
{ } do you shop at Hollister/Abercrombie&Fitch/American Eagle?
{ } do you say "omg" all the time?
{ } do the people in Hot Topic scare you?
{ } is the only nerd you like Seth Cohen?
{ } do you watch Laguna Beach?
{x} do you like pop music?
{ } do you want/have a little dog?
Total X's: 2

Hippie?
{x} is your hair long?
{x} do you own a tie-dye shirt?
{x} do you want to save the animals?
{x} do you think war is unneccesary?
{x} do you like classic rock and trippy music?
{ } have you ever participated in a protest?
{ } have you ever been overcome with a desire to hug a tree?
Total X's: 5 wow

Gangsta?
{ } do you act ghetto?
{ } do you wear do-rags?
{x} do you like hip-hop?
{ } was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?
{ } do you believe he's alive?
{x} do you like afros?
{x} have you ever said "Fo Shizzle"?
{x} do you like to dance?
{ } do you own any Baby Phat or G-Unit?
Total X's: 4

Emo?
{ } do you cry often?
{x} do you wear hoodies?
{x} do you like soft music?
{ } do people not understand you?
{ } do you write your own poems?
{ } ever dyed your hair red, black, or dark?
{ } do you cut your own hair?
{ } are you lonely?
{ } is "Ohio is for lovers" by Hawthorne Heights, a good song?
Total X's: 2

Surfer?
{ } do you surf?
{ } do you wear flip flops year-round?
{ } is your hair long, and maybe sort of "shaggy"?
{ } do you wake up before 6 every morning?
{x} do you own any pairs of shorts?
{ } are you tanned?
{x} do you want to be at the beach right now?
{ } do you hate tourists?
Total X's: 2

Geek?
{x} do you wear glasses?
{x} do you get good grades?
{x} do you use an inhaler?
{ } do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets?
{ } does your mom pick out your clothes?
{x} are you on the computer often?
{x} do you ever get picked on?
{ } do you look forward to going to school?
{ } are you shy around the opposite sex?
{ } do you play video games?
Total X's: 5

This is how it works: Comment on this entry and get a letter.

Over in your journal, write ten words beginning with that letter, including an explanation what the word means to you and why.

[info]ender5 gave me L

1. Love- one of life's essential but sometimes shitty necessities. it's done me ok so far though.

2. Lust- the more fun one. i enjoy the products of lust most

3. Lyons- my last name and my family. i think they're mostly nuts but i love em still. they're fun to be around

4. Lola- one of my three cats, and possibly the stupidest one, but she's alot of fun.

5. Loathe- it's an awesome word but i try not to let it enter my life too much.

6. Limbo- fun dance but i'm not very good at it. i wish i was. its also that place that catholics used to go to but the pope got rid of it....doesn't really effect me much though.

7. Lollipop- YUM!!! i don't think anything else needs to be said there.

8. Lebowski- part of the title of an amazing movie and a bonding experience with my father

9. Lonely- i hate feeling lonely...but can spend time alone without feeling lonely. i think i hate it most when i feel so with other people around

10. Lubricated-......just for kicks

I'M DONE!! I'M DONE!! I'M DONE!!

this semester took way too long to finish work-wise and was way too short otherwise. i'm a junior now.....it's a lil scary.....ok alot scary. only two more years left and then i have to go join the real world...boo. i'm not relishing the idea of goodbyes that will have to be made. i've been not thinking about them for awhile and now it's getting a lil difficult to do that. that's the shitty part of attachments, the detaching part.

alright, enough with the sad bits. right now, it's just about the fun bits. make the most of what's left.

elaine, steve, and i are doing a power hour tonight in our room. if you would like to join, grab a six pack and head on over around 8:30ish. it's time for the guilt-free-doing-nothingness.

i have one final left....just one and i am sooo incredibly upset that i still have one. i can't bring myself to study at the moment. my brain has abandoned me. there are a million other things i would rather be doing. however, if i don't study, i will crash and burn. it's likely i will crash and burn even with the studying, just maybe not as horribly. this

right now though, i'm gonna take a nap and see if my brain and i will get along after that.